Can I Just Let Them Chase.....?

So. SO.

So I have a problem. Going back on my commitment not to date for six months didn't really expose anything but the fact that I have a problem. And the problem is this: I can't, I mean I really CAN'T just let go and let the guy chase me in a dating situation. I want to be in control of things 100% of the time with the guy doing everything that I want and I need and I think is correct. Which, you know, is interesting given the fact that if the guy was acting that way I would NEVER be interested in him! Ugh... so how does this happen? Well, let me tell you, gentle reader.

Read that last post, did ya? Yah, read it again now with me having said the above. See? OK, so here's a recap with a bend towards proving this new point - that I have a problem. I can't just take a guy's word for it. Whatever "it" is. I have to push the envelope. I have to get confirmation on a regular basis to satisfy my own need to control and understand the situation at every waking moment. THIS is a problem. Its something that, I think, has caused most of the potential relationships I've had over the years to break up or go nowhere. Why can't I just let go and let him lead??

Like this weekend, for example.

Well, wait. Let me back up. I DID in fact hear from the guy I talked about in the last post and did go out with him again twice since I last wrote. And he's still awesome. And he's still doing and saying things that indicate that he's interested in more than just casual dating. But he doesn't call me with the frequency I'd like. He works more than I'd like. He seems content with seeing each other once weekly whereas I'd like to start stepping it up to twice or three times. But why can't I just let that go and just go with the flow?? Why can't I just take his word as his word and understand that this is the pace he's comfortable with to move forward? Why do I feel like I have to push all the time? And most importantly.... how do I fix this kind of problematic thinking??

I don't know the answer to these questions.. but I do know that I'm going to do my best not to do that with this one. So, I wait. I wait for his email or his phone call and I go about my life in between. I think that's what I'm supposed to be doing, right?